Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Safe And Sound

Dear Sweet Mallory,

We are all fighting with you girl. We held you in our arms almost 6 months ago and we knew you were the missing peice to our family. You are something special little one. Someday we are all going to look back on this and just recall bits and peices of this craziness. Dear Little Girl you have to fight, and FIGHT HARD so that we can see that bright smiling face every single day. S o that we can comfort you when you cry, kiss your booboo's when you fall, and have you to cuddle up to everyday for the rest of our lives. So baby please know that we love you, If I could change places with you know that i would in a heartbeat, You have done nothing but smile and troop along through everything and I just want to tell you that WE love you so much and we are SO SO PROUD of you!

- Mom & Dad

Dear Jillpie,

You have been the light of our lives since you were born. You have taught us so much more than we could have ever anticipated. Having you in our lives makes in complete. You are incredibly brilliant 2 year old with a heart of gold. I wish I could spend every day with you, holding you, laughing with you, and singing our "ABC'S" all day long. You make this easier on us because of your strong strong independance. We love you so much and enjoy every single moment we have with you. You just amaze us everyday. We are PROUD of you too! You were thrown into a completely different world since sissy has been sick but someday sweety it will get better.

-Mom & Dad

Dear Ryan,

I am not sure how to communicate the love I have for you. It is unconditional. I am sorry that things are not going the way either of us planned for but you have stood by thick and thin. I believe you have different coping mechanisims than I do but I need you to share too. I need to know how you feel and what you feel too. I will never let this go, I am in it for the long run, we will FIGHT not only for our little girls but for ourselves as well. Because once you stop fighting you get defeated and theres no turning back. We have a brilliant 2 year old and an amazingly stubborn 5.5 month old who is so sick, sicker than we have neglected to accept. She needs us, so does Jillian, and so do I, I need you too. I love you, I am not turning my back on you, I am not giving up, I will never give up what we have, it's too special. People envy our love, so no I refuse to throw it away because of this. I love you big lug, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Grow old, grow tired, and grow deeper in love.

-Ashley


I remember tears streaming down your face
When I said, I'll never let you go
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said, Don't leave me here alone
But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

Don't you dare look out your window darling
Everything's on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold onto this lullaby
Even when the music's gone
Gone

Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound

Just close your eyes
You'll be alright
Come morning light,
You and I'll be safe and sound

5 comments:

  1. beautiful, heartfelt, genuine...

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  2. You continue to amaze me every day. You are awesome! I am proud to call you a friend of mine and will do anything I can to support you and help you. Your girls are going to be amazing people because of you and Ryan and that is something to be proud of. We all strive for it and you are achieving it. You will all make it, because of your strength and determination. Don't ever lose that!!!

    Love you girl!!

    Katie

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  3. Wow.. You are such an inspiration to me. As I sit her with tears running down my face. I wish that I could express myself the way that you do. Never stop putting your feelings down in writing.

    I am so glad that I can take time on my lunches to come up and visit you for a few minutes, and I am also glad that I finally got to meet Ryan. The two of you are very special people that God has choosen to travel this bumpy road.

    Very special blessings....

    Nella

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  4. Wish I knew you in "real life" so that I could give you a hug! Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and your family and pray.

    -Rhiana from PA

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  5. I do not know you, but have been following your blog (Sept 2011 mommy and saw your post on BabyCenter). I have been following every since. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers every day. You are an inspiration and an amazing mama. Your girls are so lucky to have you. Stay strong and I';m glad you are learning to ask for help and lean on others. You can't do it all - though as mothers we want to and try to. So many prayers for you all.

    Jackie

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