Monday, December 12, 2011

2 weeks ago changed my life

If you would have said to me 2 weeks ago that they were going to find a tumor on my beautiful 2 month old I would have laughed. 2 weeks later here I am doing a happy dance that she only has 1 cancerous tumor left. This has been a roller coaster of emotions.

Ryan and I were discussing over the phone how much joy we got with this news. No child should ever get cancer, no child should ever have to go through treatments. No child should ever be sick. It is crazy how this has opened our eyes, how we were naive to think that this couldn't happen to us. But unfortunately this was decided for us.

In a way cancer has been a blessing, it has opened our eyes to life. It has made us cry, it has made us laugh, but when it comes down to it it has shown us that we need more active with our lives. We still have a long road ahead of us, but this has made us appreciate life much more. We have seen so many people come out of the woodwork that are routing for our little one, that are praying for her, that have helped us out in so many ways.

If we could give you all a big hug we would!

It is what it is, we are going to fight this. Our little girl is a FIGHTER!

When they walked into that room with a childhood cancer book, I wanted to run away, I wanted to run away and never come back. I actually said to Ryan that I didn't want to be a Mom anymore. But when it comes down to it, I am a mother, I am strong, and I have to be strong for these girls. I will hold there hands through life and hopefully guide them to be good people. I am blessed with these 2 little ones, they have taught me things about myself that I never imagined possible, they are my rocks.



I am crying my eyes out. Some more great news.

MIBG showed the Cancer did NOT spread to any other organs!


(we have not gotten the bone marrow back yet though, that is the last piece of the puzzle!)

It only showed the tumor on the right side, we will still have some rounds of chemo and another surgery but a HUGE WEIGHT has been lifted!

I honestly don't know what to say to you all. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!