They admitted us to Helen Devos Children's Hospital a month ago. This is the book they broke the ice with to tell us that our precious little girl had Cancer. It seems like we've been going through this for a lot longer than that. That whole first week is what breaks me down, it's what makes me want to curl up into a ball, its what brings back the tears.
It still doesn't feel real. I watch this little girl as she fights this horrible cancer and she is the reason why we are strong, she's the glue holding us together. She's the reason why I get out of bed in the morning. Because this girl has been through so much and yet here she is 6 days out of her first round of chemo and she's still smiling, she's even giggling all the time, and starting to attempt at rolling over. Not even Cancer is going to hold her back!
2011 has been a rotten year for us minus a few GREAT things that happened.
In January we found out we were PREGNANT! And used Jillian as the official announcer!
(She was just a tiny nugget in January!)
February was the last month of trying to get Jillian to actually wear glasses. As you can see a 1 year old in glasses = hard work getting her to actually look through them!
Jillian started WALKING in March!
In April, Jillian had to start wearing an eye patch, you have to admit it was pretty stinking cute :-) Surprisingly a LOT easier than making her wear glasses!
May was a GREAT month for us, we found out that we were having another GIRL!
Trust me, we LOVE our girls in this house!!!!! :-)
Jillian had her eye surgery in June, its probably bad to admit that a little part of me misses her crazy eye. It's a good thing she's kept up her silly attitude without it though! Our kids did NOT win the jackpot when it comes to vision in our family. (SORRY GIRLS!)
July was a fun month too, Ryan and I celebrated our 6 year anniversary! I was 7 months pregnant, and we had an amazing 4th of July!
August was NOT so much of fun month for us. Besides Ryan's Birthday (He turned 31 and we celebrated with a lopsided angel food covered in pink frosting, a wonderful tradition). We spent several nights in the maternity ward because I kept having preterm contractions, I was put on bed rest for the majority of the month and had to spend a lot of time away from Jillian so I could rest.
September was GREAT. Miss Mallory Aleda joined us on September 23rd at 4:10 PM! (And Yes I really do look that great after having a baby, thank you EPIDURAL!)
We are not one of those families that has a cute picture of us all smiling, looking perfect, but that is totally our life. We are blessed to have such a wonderful, chubby, cute baby to add to the chaos of our life!
November changed our lives. Mallory was diagnosed with Neuroblastoma. It was a heavy blow. Our family hit rock bottom on November 29th, Our world was turned upside down. This sweet pudding of a baby of ours had developed 2 tumors in utero.
December was a very hard month for us. Mallory had surgery to remove the larger of the 2 tumors, we spent 8 days in the hospital learning how to take care of her at home. We came out of room 913 with more than just Cancer, we came out better people. This hit us hard and we never expected it. She had her 1st round of Chemo this month and has been a trooper. She keeps on smiling, she keeps on giggling, she keeps on going even when the world is crashing down around us. She's a strong little girl and she's got all the right stuff to fight this!