Friday, March 9, 2012

My favorite part of the day


We've almost made it! (It's 1 pm and Jillian usually goes to bed around 1-2ish, the zoning out has started so I know we're getting there!)

Mallory has her CT scheduled for March 21st and Chemo starting again on March 22nd. We should have the results back by clinic on the 22nd. I just pray that we get some good results. This chemo is super hard on her and she struggles everyday with feeling good. I am dreaming of the day she is NED (No evidence of Disease).

I am struggling with the "what if's" again. I know whatever happens, happens. But I can't even begin to imagine, nor do I want to go through life without her. I don't want to take the letter's off her wall, or pack away any of her stuff, I just could NOT do it. So I am hoping and praying we get more good news with this CT, that it shows this cancer is finally responding to treatment, she has been through more in her tiny life than any person should ever have to go through. I pray for her everyday, that she just will continue to thrive through this and grow up to be a naughty 2 year old just like her sister.

We will hopefully be home for Easter, this is another holiday that will be spent on house arrest. I am going to make it SUPER special, we are going to make cupcakes, hot subs, an egg hunt, and just vedge at home. I have to go shopping for the girls so they have an Easter "outfit"
as well. We are going to spend the day celebrating Jesus and all the things in life that we have to be thankful for because of his sacrifices. Even though we will not be going to church, or spending it with our relatives, it will be a great day. A day we get to rejoice and spend together and to praise God.