Monday, December 12, 2011

2 weeks ago changed my life

If you would have said to me 2 weeks ago that they were going to find a tumor on my beautiful 2 month old I would have laughed. 2 weeks later here I am doing a happy dance that she only has 1 cancerous tumor left. This has been a roller coaster of emotions.

Ryan and I were discussing over the phone how much joy we got with this news. No child should ever get cancer, no child should ever have to go through treatments. No child should ever be sick. It is crazy how this has opened our eyes, how we were naive to think that this couldn't happen to us. But unfortunately this was decided for us.

In a way cancer has been a blessing, it has opened our eyes to life. It has made us cry, it has made us laugh, but when it comes down to it it has shown us that we need more active with our lives. We still have a long road ahead of us, but this has made us appreciate life much more. We have seen so many people come out of the woodwork that are routing for our little one, that are praying for her, that have helped us out in so many ways.

If we could give you all a big hug we would!

It is what it is, we are going to fight this. Our little girl is a FIGHTER!

When they walked into that room with a childhood cancer book, I wanted to run away, I wanted to run away and never come back. I actually said to Ryan that I didn't want to be a Mom anymore. But when it comes down to it, I am a mother, I am strong, and I have to be strong for these girls. I will hold there hands through life and hopefully guide them to be good people. I am blessed with these 2 little ones, they have taught me things about myself that I never imagined possible, they are my rocks.



  1. Ash, I have tears running down my face. Your words move me. I admire your's and ryans strength! You are amazing parents and Jillian and Mallory are SO lucky to have you for parents! Your words are right on the money, this has been an eye opener for me as well. I love you so much!

  2. Hi Ashley and Ryan,
    I got the link to Mallory's website from Bethany and Brandon Miltgen. I just want you to know how happy I am for your good news...I've been checking your site daily for updates. You are inspiring, and I'm praying for you and your sweet sweet baby.